A different approach . . .

Some things this week have caused me to be thinking about my blog . . . which I have not touched for two months, since I started class. That, obviously, is not how I want to do things. I am choosing to have mercy on myself, as I got a little freaked out with “imposter syndrome” during those first couple of weeks and I am working full time, taking a graduate-level class and facilitating a table for Bible study (which of course I love, Lisa G 😉 ).
Part of what I have been thinking about, is something that several people have been challenging me with, and that is my need to do things perfectly. Sigh . . . Yes, it is “a thing” for me. My therapist of the past would have said, “How’s that working for you, Denise?” (She could be a brat! 😉 ) It does not serve me well and often keeps me from things because I am afraid I am not going to be able to complete something literally perfectly. May sound bizarre to some, but I have an expectation to be something different than “only human,” which is what people say when I get something less than perfect. However, I also know that I have seen a few times in my class that when I thought I did the worst on something because I was distracted with my trip or exhausted after a weekend conference, God intervened on my behalf and I was surprised by my grade. I knew it was nothing I had done on my own. Hmmm . . .
So, part of my challenge to myself with this blog is to work at being more casual and just putting more things out there that might be encouraging to people, without necessarily being a formal write-up of something. God will do what He is going to do . . .

As I’ve said before, this is only open to people who are friends at this time, so I am interested in knowing your thoughts on all of this as I go along.